now that made me laugh for some reason (small things amuse small minds ) or maybe it's the HD attitude 'take advantage of this opportunity to laugh it may not pass by too soon again.'
I am looking at everything around my place that has to be sorted and packed - very confusing at the best of times. I have to go through everything and I mean everything, bins of sheets, clothes I made for the kids when they were little, recipes, music, paint, patterns, frames ......get the picture? Not to mention the abundance of clothes. I am mildly ADD but just enough that I'd rather do anything than sort through stuff I have a hard time reaching.
So that;s why I took my walker for a walk, got a salted caramel hot chocolate sat outside Starbucks with my book, patting strangers dogs.
Yes I'm still happy to be alive still happy I can walk still happy about everything except the thought of sorting. I wish I had a twin who do things like that for me . I have crazy waves of fatigue it feels sometimes like my brain is detaching itself from my body. I will not let this disease beat me as far as attitude goes . I've always been an observer and as a child I'd watch women who had nothing to complain a bout but would make great dramas. Then there the mothers (like mine and Mrs Blue) who were lovely feisty gentle souls. No matter what happened to them they were strong and kept going. Also my grans had rough lives but they never complained . I look at my daughters who are going through pretty brutal times right now . They haven't given up they keep going , my granddaughter as well.
I look at my grandson always a smile on his face, he's a gift too.
I am so lucky to have my family all of them even when they tick me off (well I do have walker rage according to Josie) but that's ok..
I'd rather be out having walker rage than curled up defeated on the sofa feeling sorry for myself.
Well the only time I have walker rage is when someone beeps at me to hurry up .
I look around and would still rather be me than someone else- I love my friends and family and feel that support and love lifting me all the time...and I am thankful
that's it for now
kath
